» @ 17.6.10
Sorry for being inactive & privating my blog. Something happened & i cant stand it anymore.
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Well , my phone got confiscated & i'm grounded .
Because i went home late , padahal dah bilang seh balek lambat -.-.
So , sorry for not replying your messages , just email me.
that's all. Below this paragraph is just me complaining about life. *waves* (:
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mom , you got issues -.-
what did i do so wrong ? you can even compare me to other kids.
especially somebody you hate so much.
I know i'm fucked up useless , but you don't have to kick me & mock me for that.
& your reason is because i'm rude ? You called my friends 'the wrong people',
and you expect me to keep quite ? they are my friends , I'm sure they'll do the same !
yes , i backed them up, but that doesn't mean i love them more than i love my family !
no matter how angry i am at my brother or sister , they're still my siblings.
I love my friends and family equally the same.
So what if my grades are horrible? the reason is because i didn't really study.
& soo not because or my friends. You think they're bad examples ? HELLO.
you've met them , ALL of them -.-. You even said yourself , 'they're GOOD' ,
(last year during Hari Raya) & now suddenly you hold grudges to them ?
Its obvious you're unhappy with me!
I tried helping you out , being nice to you , & all i got was you mocking me infront of my siblings!
You can even try to convince my sister how 'bad' i am.
& TRYING to make me jealous by showing favoritism to my siblings ain't working !
its just shows how immature you are !!!!!!!
seriously, what the do you want ? Me begging for forgiveness and saying im stupid !?!?!
this , is how you show your love towards me ?! i know you hate me , don't have to show it !
you don't even know what kind of problems im having now , so shutup !!
You said you know me ? KNOW ME SO SO MUCH !?!!
well , you're wrong -.- ., i changed , because i know if i keep my immature spoiled loving old me self to you , all i'll get was you & other people taking advantage of me !!!
do you even notice how much i'm suffering now ?! NO, YOU DONT.
I'M NOT PERFECT !!!! NOR AM I HAVING THE GREATEST LIFE EVER !!!
you're not the only problem i have now , i got lots , and dont make things worse by the way they already are !!!!!!! i'm jealous how people can live a happy life with a perfect family.
You know what mom , you're right. You're right all along. { Something you should be proud of .
i suck , i deserve living in the forests where all the monkey lives .
i am useless , don't deserve to be born into this world.
i am stupid , i deserve getting all the U's in my report book.
That's what you said, said yourself.
maybe i deserve to die.
& don't call me bohsia when you don't even understand the REAL meaning of it.
